Now it's not as though I'm out there working on a grassroots campaign to change the world, but when it comes to my personal life, I'm not a fan of waiting around. I do not subscribe to the love-happens-when-you-least-expect-it school of thought, I'm more of a when-it-rains-it-pours kind of girl.
And so, I've done all sorts of things since moving to New York to inject change into my life. A lot of it has been motivated by dating. Forcing myself to go out. Forcing myself to go on second dates even when I know they're not leading anywhere. Forcing myself to try match. And then every time that starts feeling empty, I try to fill the void simply by keeping busy with things I enjoy. Signing up for classes. Signing up for sports teams. Signing up for a blog. Signing up for community service projects. Signing up for things that make me feel like I am enriching my life in any sort of way. Signing up for things that keep me from feeling like I am wasting away my weekends and evenings sitting in front of my TV, alone.
But sometimes it all seems like a rather temporary fix. I can keep myself busy all I want, but at the end of the day, I still come home to an empty apartment and I still don't have any real control over certain aspects of my life. It still feels as though I am waiting around. Waiting on the world to change.